"You are the best thing that's ever been mine."

What happened?!  Just 4 short years ago, I was pregnant with my first child.  I was eating spicey food, talking long walks while having contractions, making deals with my unborn child, and listening to blessings that Jon would give me telling me to have patience, that our little girl would come when she was ready.   And now, I sit here, looking at my beautiful almost 4 year old and my amazing 9 month old wondering where the time has gone.  They are both miracle babies.  And I hold them each day as such. 

The other morning, I told Jocey to go upstairs, make her bed, get dressed, brush her teeth and her hair.   These are her morning chores.  She did as such, proudly coming down the stairs saying, "Mommy, I fixed my hair too!"  I wish I could put into words exactly how I feel about this amazing little girl.  It is love, but so much more.  I am so proud of her.  She is so kind, so helpful, so generous, and so loving.  I couldn't have asked for a better big sister for my baby.

And then you have my second baby.  She is much different than her sister - she is a happy baby, all the time.  She is peaceful and chill.  She would rather sit in your lap and cuddle than be up running around (although we are on the eve of her taking her first unassisted steps).  And yet when I hold her at night, I am grateful that she is that way.  Whenever we are all downstairs watching television or playing the Wii, I have to sit on the floor with her so that she doesn't feel alone.  Her favorite thing to do right now is clap her hands as we gleefully shout "Yay!"  And when I find her getting into things that she shouldn't be, I say no, and she turns around and claps her hands with a big cheesy grin.  Okay, maybe I'll be upset another day. 

They are my girls.  I love them so immensly.  And as I think about my sister, my friends, and other women who have PCOS and have trouble having children of their own, I am so grateful that they are mine.  I don't understand why God gave them to me and has allowed me to be their mother, but I am grateful.  I have learned that some things just cannot be explained.  You don't ask questions, just have gratitude.  I hope that the women I know and love have the same opportunity and blessing.  I think Taylor Swift summed it up perfectly - "You are the best thing that's ever been mine."