I didn't get to write yesterday - for some ODD reason, I am finding that housework and chasing a 3 year old take longer these days. Maybe the Lord is preparing me for 2nd motherhood? I don't know. I just know I'm not getting to everything anymore. It's a little frustrating.
This week brought with it the news that Caylee may be joining us a week earlier. And with that bit of news, anxiety has set in for me. I don't know why it took all this time for me to realize that we're going to actually have another person in our house, that I am going to do the baby thing again. Don't get me wrong, I am excited to have another addition to our family. But the anxiety sometimes gets the best of me.
I am so grateful Jon has been understanding this week. It's been rough. I think my bout with PPD last time has him a little prepared - and scared. :) But at least we know it's a good chance that I will have it again and that I will need help. He is the greatest husband and I am so blessed to have him.
We broke down and put up the Christmas lights outside this week, although they are not on yet! Look at me, I'm growing up! :) I think we both realized that the weekends are G-O-N-E, GONE! And my ability to help him becomes NILL once Caylee is here. I also spent the week making freezer meals for us so that it will be easy to make dinner during a time when I need to be recovering. It's been a crazy week. It's almost like these last 9 months, I've just been sitting back saying, "Oh, we have SO much time." And now, that time seems to be like a runaway train that just keeps getting faster and faster and faster. But we ARE excited to see this new little miracle and hold her in our arms.
3 comments:
Cant wait to see pictures of the new little one.. I hope your recovery is quick and easy.. The second time around is TONS easier. Each one gets easier and easier. You are more ready than you think to be a mommy again. =) Im so excited for you!
Cat, we are so excited for you and can't wait to see her. We wish you all the best.
ps just thought you should know that we made your yummy slow cooker chili yesterday and your cressent dinner rolls. It was heavenly...all of it! Thanks for sharing!
cat has your dr said anything about being on meds before the baby comes to help with the ppd? I had it really bad with maddy. I almost threw her against the wall and I did throw her on the bed...with emmy they put me on prozac 6 weeks prior and after delivery. It helped so much! night and day difference. ppd really is scary. I'll be thinking of you!
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