I'm no good at them, I always second-guess myself on my choice of answer, they completely stress out. Yes, multiple choice tests. This week, Jon was laid off of his job at Curtis 1000. They are closing 20 territories throughout the company, and Nevada is one of them. So here we are, taking a life multiple choice test. Again.
I know that I have a lot to be grateful for: Jon was able to work from home for 2 years, we've lived in a beautiful home, we've been able to do things together as a family that we normally wouldn't have, he's created contacts that are invaluable, we've had insurance. Now, we don't. We have a baby coming in November and for the last 2 months of this pregnancy, we have no insurance. We have no clue what to do. Where do we live, how do we pay our bills, it's a very stressful situation.
The first day was difficult for me and my eyes were very swollen by the time I went to bed. But I have to admit, after that day, I've been optomistic, even cheerful. Why? First of all, I have an amazing husband. Within 24 hours of losing his job, he already had 4 job interviews (one of which was a scam unfortunately), networked with a dozen people, and has remained calm and positive the whole time. It helps to balance out my hormonal self.
But I still struggle with having to make a choice from a list of options about a mile long: do we stay in Las Vegas? Do we go to college full time? Do we stay with University of Phoenix, and if so where do we want to be? etc. It's a hard thing to have to decide on where that decision needs to be made in the next 3 weeks. Everyone has been telling me that this happened for a reason and that Heavenly Father is watching over us. I feel like it is times like this that are a test of my testimony because I can't possibly rationalize that there is ANY religious reason for us getting pregnant when we thought it was impossible, then Jon losing his job 2 months before the delivery (which has to be c-section).
So this time, I'm allowing Jon to take this multiple-choice test, and I will follow him. Prayers on my part consist of asking for peace and hope. I just want to be able to keep it together for my husband and my girls. And I am trying very hard to have faith that Heavenly Father will help us work this out.
(Sorry for the depressing entry, but I feel that it is important to write down important events and feelings that our family is going through, since this is basically our family history)
2 comments:
OH!! You guys will definately be in my prayers!! Just the stress has to be horrible. Do you guys have the option of COBRA? It's where you can still pay for your insurance after you lose a job. It's expensive because you pay what you were paying before plus whatever the company had paid too, but it's way less expensive then a c-section hospital bill.
Not that's it's in anyway close to your situation, but Dean lost his job just weeks before we got married. And I was so stressed!! But he was able to start working with Jefferson County and it gave him the opportunity to move up and become a deputy - which fortunately pays enough that I can stay home! His old job definately didn't pay enough for that. So hopefully there is a blessing in disguise for you as well!!
Catherine, we will keep you and your family in our prayers. Have you looked into anything like medicaid or the state insurance plans?
We are thinking of you and have faith that things will all come together. Love you!
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